Consequence

If life's a consequence
why do I dream of you?
'cause if you were lost on me
we'll never get back again

What about my faith
'cause this is not working
at the same time my head

If I believe, would it be?
If I believe, would it be?

Glass brokes up here in front of my face
Nothing's cool, nothing escapes

If I say no, would you stay with me?
If I say yes, could you ignore me, again?

If life's a consequence
why do I dream of you?
'cause if you were lost on me
we'll never get back again

I cared too much

This is the end
and of course I'll cry
but I won't waste more tears
'cause if you wanted this
I'm liking it and
both happy

YOU were a lie
not what I thought YOU were and then
say GOODBYE is harder than FORGET
YOU wasn't what I wanted
I NEVER was what YOU thought YOU wanted, was it?

YOU were not special as your name
and I tell you have to believe it
'cause then you will wonder it your whole life
and beeing ridiculous
sorry I forgot you cannot fix that

YOU've NEVER value me
and I valued you TOO MUCH
and maybe you didn't care about me,
and maybe I cared too much

This is the end
and of course I'll cry
but I won't waste more tears
'cause if you wanted this
I'm liking it and
both happy

Well hey!, tell me you want me that you like and try to hug me, everything
Well hey, say that you hate me, you can’t see me, oh my satan, that’s so sweet
Well see! You were playing with me
And see there’s nothing left to anything


Because I was wondering about your status
And I really guess you’re out of focus
Well really believe it, won’t you promise me?
You don’t like me anymore? Fine, stop looking at me

Have you ever wanted something so much?
It's not what you want it's just what they need
It will be late but don't worry I'll be right near

Now I'm here dancing crying
Standing here waiting for you
Without chances to escape
I'm holded for you forever.

Every little thing that we dream

every desire of our beliefs will be near

every thing that you need, I'll be here

I don't understand anything, is a rush on my mind but it's getting me high. If I could see, my head is breaking in a million parts as fast as my breast and I can't stand it because it's so hard and I just don't get you. What are you trying to say? I can't understand you, no I can't. Everything blurs itself and I got lost, should ask but don't know who, don't know what, don't know if I really should, is that you don't see? Because If I didn't like someone I'd just ignore all the over-affectionate comments and stuff.. you don't. You don't and that's getting me muddled.

If you could see that raising your hands up, you won't find a cloud my darling, there's nothing more for people like you, If you could see, I don't know much about you but I just used you.

You can't see all the people dying, you don't see you don't need darling.

When you fall apart, you'll know by now, I'm not that kind of girl, it's just "I don't have the time".

What's wrong now? I don't know, unfixed problems, incomplete songs. I need peace, rescue me. It seems a little bit contradiction even though I'm talking about an audition, but anyway you can't take the place, is not your fault, it's just I want something more, the future looked bright, would b better if you knew about what I talk about, stop being fool and blind, I'm dying without you, fine.

IT'S NOT A CAREER, I LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU.

You're the sweetest dream I've ever had, believe me when I say it's true. It's kinda different when you play jokes, it's kinda different when we talk, we don't have to fight tonight.

It does not seem that fair when it hurts yourself, I won't do that again. I didn't really, if you thought I meant that kind of things, you were right, at first, say goodbye. It's too hard to realize, you were playing like a fass, well I know I'll be allright, "It's just I don't have the time".

In my eyes you can see I'm like floating up stream, every cloud has always a silver lining, always, I can swear you, this is the best feeling. My cheeks turn red, this is love, beautiful sound, clear sight, perfect eyes, I like seeing myself fly. The sky is red, the roses blue, the perfect smile in your face, it's just you. This romantic style getting me up, pulling they down, but I don't care anymore, It's just me and you, nothing else, nothing to say, nothing to do, we belong to each other.  

I want to skip everything we think, because that's not necessary, even though you don't believe it. So kiss me, that's not that hard, if you knew how I wish your wandering mouth, your lips, it's like a fruit machine, but you're going to bet soon, and I need you.

 

"It's 5 o'clock in the morning, conversation got boring, you said you're going to bed soon , so I snuck off to your bedroom. And I thought I'd just wait there, 'til I heard you come up the stairs. I pretended I was sleeping, and I was hoping you would creep in, with me. You put your arm around my shoulder, it was as if the room got colder, we moved closer in together and started talking about the weather. Said tomorrow would be fun, we can watch A Place In The Sun. I didn't know where this was going, when you kissed me.And today you accidentally called me baby. Are you mine? Are you mine? 'Cause I stay here all the time, watching telly, drinking wine. Who'da known?, who'da known? When you flash up on my phone, I'd no longer feel alone. Let's just stay, let's just stay, I wanna lie in bed all day. We'll be laughing all the way, told your friends, they all know, we exist but we're taking it slow"

And all the things we are going to live, if you knew how I wish, and all the things that I can see, oh my dear, I think I deserve this, please don't make me cry.

I wasn't born for this, but I know have to stand like I was 2 days ago, oh my god. It's hard, because I'm going nowhere, and I'm getting lost, more and more each day, and this is painful and at the time beautiful.

I'm forgiving, that's not okay. I have to put my sense clear. And even though I think sometimes it's too late to let myself, I've to do my last try, the last chance, because sometimes I guess it's enough late to regret about it, because all the plastic, It's all fantastic, but I can't take this anymore, no.

Believe me when I say it's true.

You always trusted me,

they always warned me,

but I've never wanted to hear.

How could I forget everything you touch then?

Then I'll be more careful, this time

It was annoying, you had always won.

This kind of hurting, you don't know by now

But you know?

I'll break you whoa, I'll break you.

I won't give a damn, never, and

from now on I'll always get what I want, I wanted

and you'll fall down, whoa, you'll fall down,

and I'll be enjoying on it, I'll be glad.

Now I regret, everything I gave to you

and have to let you save it

cause this will be worse 

than anything you've ever dreamed

oh wait, not that long, you'll see

I'll break you whoa, I'll break you.

I won't give a damn, never, and

from now on I'll always get what I want

and you'll fall down, whoa, you'll fall down,

and I'll be enjoying on it, poor empty girl.

What you did to me it was so painful,

I was hurting myself, suffering much than I could ever take

but you'll take all the blame,

believe me when I say It's true.

I'll break you whoa, I'll break you.

I won't give a damn, never, and

from now on I'll always get what I want

and you'll fall down, whoa, you'll fall down,

and I'll be enjoying on it, I'll be..

Oh my god, I was wasting my tears, this is mad enough.

These days were a bit hard, I know all this, this is all going to make me cry again, but anyway, now I'm happy by myself. This is more than great, I'm feel so um..., overrated?

I'm looking for a place to stay, somewhere in your heart, that'll be more than just fine. If I could cry, I cried in front of your face, you'll see my brown eyes, they'll be so wet, oh my god, I think I have to, it could help you to forget. 

Then when the sun goes down, I can see my moon shine, and when the clouds are coming, well I know I'll see my raindrops flying, trying to write my name falling down the sky. When the stars fall down, I'll see the red ones tinkering as I smile, our honeymoon, that was so alive. You couldn't see the sun bright, but you've seen the rain coming down to us, the water wetting us, we were so alive. I can't say anything but, when he dies, it will be too late, we'll be unitedly forever, our oceanstate. 

Rain falling again, tears running on my face, pain growing everyday, don't know why. I still ask, was it needed that way on hurt?

Oh my gosh, I'll crush. Oh my gosh, I'll die. Cold again. Feel like cry.

Stop with all this, let's be clear.

You said you wouldn't hurt me again, but you do it. You know, I NEED THIS MORE THAN ANYTHING. WHY? WHY ME? WHY YOUR RIGHT-HAND? WHY? AFTER EVERYTHING I DID BECAUSE OF YOU, ALL THE PAIN I HAD GOT WHEN YOU WERE GONE? AFTER THAT, YOU STILL HURT, AND WHEN I THINK ALL COULD BE OVER, FORGET YOU, SAY GOODNIGHT & GOODBYE, FOREVER, I CAN'T. Because I still love you, omg I still love you. But I can't feel this anymore, please God, I can not.

I ain't solves, I just fall, in the deepest hole, there's no stop. When do you think this is going to end? When I finally lay falling off, and let my body crush, and give up all the suffering, and the end... of everything.

Today I woke up crying, It was a dream a little bit fantastic. I was in a perfect world, Ashlee Simpson was my mother I thought. Christmas was coming, I've never lived Christmas in winter, so it was funny. All the bells tinkering, it was more than happy. I remember someone saying we couldn't stay there much time, It hurt.

I asked,

- Will you clean up all this stuff?

- Of course I will.

They "didn't remember anything", but I did. It was horrible, never again. Perfection is not real, never, and I was thinking about that, then I started crying, and woke up. 

After that, family fights, that's the worst. Even worse than love. Omg. I can't feel this anymore.

If something is not fine, look at the sky, you'll see something it could help to cry. If something shouldn't be like that, just left everything you've got, be a free dove, run away from all, get far from cold. 

Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say, don't try to tell me anything, I'm sick of that, just kiss me, it all will be more than fine. You think that I can let you go, but what happen when you can't let the pain grow? When you're more than cold? When you find that velvet place, your never ending days? If you're sad, I'll cry for you. If you can't breathe, I'll breath for you, but if you can't stay, don't ask me to leave you again.

What would you do if your reason for being didn't want you anymore. Would you still risk everything to save them? Raise your hands and try touching the sky, and when you do it you'll notice there's never been a sky to fly, there's no sparkle in their eyes and you've ever lived a dream, because life is such a very real, pretty clear, belief. Raise your hands up in the air and look up for the missing stars, that died yesterday in our twilight night, you were one, little piece of sharp, super-cold sparkle light.

When someone left you, when someone is gone, when you can't find a reason, when you felt so strong and now you know that you're not. You feel cold, all's done, but you never thought about it, you can't believe it at first, but it's the truth, he's not. 

I don't want to get depressed, I would like to be there. My head crushes itself to see if there're more answers than a poor fight. I am looking for the high light, going to be the mirror. Velvet place, never ending days.

I saw this coming, in a way.

I saw this coming, in a way.

Something is wrong, something is the reason of the troubles, something is wrong, someone wants revenge, of what? I don't know, but the ending is coming. My soul will fall apart, but I'm not afraid, you are the ones that should be frightened of my death.

I felt so cold

I was alone

You hold me up

But I was still alone

Inside my heart

There's a hope instead your love

How could you let it go?

She's broken inside

She's nothing but a lie

She may be loosing her mind

She makes me cry

She can't be one, oh no, no.

Everything gets clear even when it's dark

When you're with them,

you can move away all the pain

Sometimes it's late, sometimes you can't replace

If you always get mad, if you left behind, you won't know

She's messing me up

She's probably looking for grace

She won't explain

She can't hurt me again

But she does, she does

Every time I hear her voice

I'm falling apart

I'm always thinking about that.

Words won't be able to know

Pain won't be able to hurt, anymore.

What a beautiful dream while I slept at night, oh my dear, how can I make you cry? Velvet place, never ending days, without any lace, did you feel I need some space? Breaking it myself is the perfect blame I could take, I love you little piece of grace.

Tears fall from fears when I can't have you. If you'd be mine, I kissed you, but I think you're not. So we can say I miss you so, if you don't talk, if you don't know, if you're not, if you don't. Keep in your bubble, keep in her arms, she's just a bitch without the bed, omg.

I can't believe, this is more than faithful sensations, these are real descriptions. This is what I've looking for that far away. The colors start crystalize, I'm getting enough now. This feeling is evolving, super-light it's like crawling, perfect we're going slowly. Been a fool wasn't smart, I guess. If I could try, I'll do it today. The songs, they sound better even if they talk about you.

Should I? 'Cause this is a fucking love game, where you and me are the players. I don't want to loose you, but this was a game, was it?  If I decide to go, will you fall apart? This is all because of your stupid teen stuff about sex and kissing boys, but don't you know? I'm full of that and fer sure I'm going to win. If you always showed yourself like a toy, why should it be my fault? If you died of blood, if you got cold, if you don't, why'd I have to cry for? I love you, but everything gets clear when all the people know the truth, and told you were the stupid little girl that was hurting herself. When you realize, when you get this, when you discover this was real, you'll do that nervous giggle, you'll catch cold, your head probably will start getting fucking hard and your pain'll be worst than anything. When you feel that, when you read this, call me, 'cause I'm having such a big trouble.

Everyone knows we're not that real as we could. We decide how we wish our lives, and I chose death. Now I'm walking next my lovely vampire and I remember my life's chronicles as much as I can, it'd should've been better than I took care of, stupid teen stuff. I've never noticed I was in love, but this is mad enough to be true, so the worst is no one's heart will ever beat enough to know, never like them, no. They could never see the sun shining like we do, they'll never have that time to know each other at all. Only a vampire can love you FOREVER, you know, I still ask myself why everytime I hear this song I feel like cry but I don't. Oh, I feel so cold.

- Don't jump into their hearts, don't jump into their fancy empty dead hearts-, they said.

- But I love them, I love him, and that's a fact, and there's no coming back, no turns and no doubts, there's a chance, and I'm taking it, there's only one thing, a run away and a never come back, that's the love, that's what i've looking for, that's what I'll die for, that's what I am alive for, that's love, and I will never come back again, never. No one can make me change my decisions, because I've taken them yet. -

(Slam of the door)

My arms' tears are turning black, they're turning vapour, they don't exist. Take the blame, because this PERSONAL things will kill me as soon as you hurt yourself, and I've to take all the pain. I just don't know, and I knew I've said that yet, but I have to say it again, however I see, you don't understand, please, hold me like you did it today. Oh, wait... It was just me and my stupid little thoughts about you and me and what's going on, that stuff, you know, but don't get worried, I've got a lot of you made by me for these kind of things, I felt this before. I'd tell you that I "loved" or "love" you, whatever you like, but I don't really care. 

Everything has changed and the only one thing that I thought It would make me glad of, It made me worse. I need you, at less you. Don't worry I've seen yet, you act as if you were 13. 'Cause I thought that we'd laugh about this ):
And sometimes the only one thing that seems to be okay is a book, and the the world falls over my feet telling me what I don't.
It's hard, you know. Everytime I feel so alone, no, just right now, and I think this might save me one day, when something worse happen, I'll figure it out on my own.

My head is roomy than three days ago,
but I can't stop think about it, It's eating me,
is something will never stop,
and I think that it was what I've been
looking for.
If it'd be real, for sure you were kissing
my lips in that twilight night, but that's it,
just a dream, just a fantasy I am in,
picking up things make my head crush.
This is suffer, super-cool-masochism.